My,
it has been a while since I have updated this blog. So much has changed in six
years that one blog post update on my life would probably turn into a novel. I
have been on a fitness journey for the last six years, maintaining my weight
all the while and fluctuating anywhere from 150-155 lbs. I am not unhappy with
how I look, which makes finding my motivation for getting to my goal weight
really difficult. I was thinking of how to better motivate myself and thought I
would start a blog. I was going to start a brand new one and then thought.. why
would I do that when there is so much history in this old one? Embarrassing
photos? Absolutely. But they are mine. They are me in the raw and they are the
real deal journey of an overweight young adult trying to find her confidence
and I can’t pretend to be embarrassed by that. So, I decided to just continue
this old thing with a lot of new updates. This is going to be a long post.
The
last time I wrote in this blog was December 2011 and I was 158 lbs. I remember
that time in my life. I had just moved back to Indiana after living in
California for a couple of years. It was the end of the first year of our weight
loss journey and I had lost roughly 65 lbs over the course of that year. My
then boyfriend (now husband) had lost over 100 lbs. We had only been together
for a couple of years and in that year we had accomplished so much together
that we thought was impossible. Losing the weight was the single best thing I
have ever done for myself. I invested time into myself and it paid off. I have
kept the weight off over the last six years, even through two pregnancies. That
is something to be proud of.
This
has been more than weight loss to me. I am so much more confident that than 220
lb girl that walked across that stage at my high school graduation. I am
healthy enough to chase my kids around and keep up with them. I am small enough
to fit on a roller coaster. I am not so big that I fear being the last person
in a room of people because I’m wondering what comments they’re thinking about
my weight. The mentality of weight loss and weight maintenance is a true
lifestyle change. In the last six years, I have thought about every single
thing that goes into my body. Every calorie. I have planned work outs and cheat
meals and meal plans to stay on track. I have had week or month long benders
where I fall back into my old habits. That’s why this is a journey that I will
be on for the rest of my life.
(Can we just talk about how sexy he is? I mean really.)
I am
153 lbs today. Six years, a marriage, two pregnancies, home-ownership, and a
college degree later and I have lost five lbs since that last post I made six
years ago. Doesn’t seem like much, but to me it says that I have kept the
weight off and I have taught myself how to truly fuel my body with food rather
than pleasure it with food. My goal weight is 135 lbs. The lowest I have been
on my journey was the Summer before I got pregnant with my daughter, Parker,
and I was 145 lbs. I was in the best shape I had ever been in my life and I
felt like a million bucks. I want to be back there.
Those
of you that know me personally know that I am a HUGE Big Brother fan and I applied
to be on the show for their 20th season in the Summer of 2018. The
application said that my body should be ‘pool ready.’ I would have no shame
going on Big Brother in a bathing suit right now in my not so pool ready body
because it is my body. It is my story. It is my blood, sweat, and tears.
However, what better reason to motivate me to finally get to my goal weight
than getting on my favorite show of all time?
Ever
since I had my daughter, my blood pressure has been high and I have been
medicated. How does a 27 year old woman who has lost 70 lbs need to be on
medication for high blood pressure? This drives me absolutely crazy. So, this
journey is going to be about more than losing weight. It is going to be about
getting my health back and getting off of these meds. I am making this blog to
hold me accountable for this transformation I am going to undergo over the next
few months. I hope you enjoy following me and I hope it motivates someone else
to hop on the bandwagon with me.
My
husband has agreed to do this with me again, and I know better than anyone that
we are unstoppable together. So there will be an over abundance of half naked
photos of both of our fluffy bodies to track our progress. Our weight loss
journey began because we were watching Rachael Ray one day and saw Dr. Ian
Smith on there promoting his new diet book titled ‘The Four Day Diet’.
Something clicked in our minds that day and we immediately bought that book,
started the diet, and that was all it took to get us addicted to watching that
number on the scale drop. So, for the beginning of this journey, we are going
back to old faithful and doing the four day diet as a kick start. I know that
it works and I have come to know that I do much better with some structure in
the initial phase of losing weight. Once I get in the groove, I am able to stay
motivated while cooking my own meals, but until then I need some guidance. Here
are our goals:
Stormi Ray
Starting Weight: 153 . Starting Weight: 252
Goal Weight: 135 Goal Weight: 225
Goal Weight: 135 Goal Weight: 225
Goal Date: March 1st, 2018 Goal Date: March 1st, 2018
Let's see how this goes.
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